Crossroads

I haven’t posted in some time due to the busy nature of my life right now. With family responsibilities, working and taking a university course my free time is a priceless commodity. The last couple of weeks I have been sick with a cold and bad cough that turned into a mild pneumonia that took the wind right out of my sails. I went back to work the last couple of days and felt absolutely spent after a relatively light work day. Needless to say, my energy level has been at sub zero. I know I have a paper due next week and I have only started reading the articles for. Add on to that my son who had been febrile for three days with a severe ear infection.
At this particular low period in my life comes the crossroad. It seems like Satan particularly likes to add this stuff in my life when energy levels are low or almost non existent. A thorn that attacked two years ago is back. I thought the wound was pretty much healed. The circumstances were made right for the wound to fester again. A harsh comment here, a temptation there and we are right back to where we were. He is out to attack when our spiritual life is weakened. When someone feels that they can make it without God and without Christian friends, the next step is to get sucked down the proverbial spiral.
I know God is in control and anything that happens is always filtered through His hands, but I still have a feeling of panic in the peace. I have been down this road before and God was faithful in preserving those involved. He has removed the influences that poisoned the pie in the past and I am (almost) confident He will do so again. I also have this feeling of wanting to throw all of my commitments in the trash. I want to forget all about these responsibilities that I have taken on in my life. These "extras" just seem so overwhelming right now and the energy to carry on with them seems absent.
Forgive me if you are reading this and it makes no sense. Only those who are privy to circumstances in the past and present with be able to decipher this cryptic message. I guess if you feel led to pray for this situation, I welcome ALL PRAYERS.
In His Grip
Kim