Still Alive

I haven't blogged in some time and I decided to play around with the blogskin yesterday. I quite like this one. It reflects me in so many ways or more who I desire to be.
I had signed up for the summer semester for my degree program, even though when I started all this, I vowed not to work in the summer. Well, I have now dropped my summer course because I have realized between work, kids and just summer in general, it would be far to overwhelming to complete a course on the Theorists of Nursing. I will register again in the fall. The manic part of me would like to register for two but the level part of me thinks that may be a bit too much. I will see how the next few weeks go. I am glad that I have dropped the course and feel much more freedom to enjoy the summer and the pool.
There have been some changes at work with staff on my team. There have been some stressful moments to say the least. The new staff was "re-acting" instead of "acting" to differences in our team. The in-fighting that was occurring was so reminisent of my days at the hospital. Women can be so brutal. I found myself getting caught up in old sinful patterns that the Lord had removed me from long ago. The thought of the upcoming team meeting sent me into a tailspin emotionally. I was overwhelmed with my sinful patterns and thoughts that I literally felt sick the day of the meeting. Two days prior I began to pray about the meeting, for the new staff member and the current ones. Confession and forgiveness was needed desperately. God was and is so gracious when we confess our sins. The meeting went well in my eyes and there was much accomplished. God truly was the Chair of that meeting, even if the others were not aware of that. There was a peace that went beyond understanding. There is still a long way to go to establish the trust and cohesiveness that our team once enjoyed but I know with prayer, He will mend the broken bonds.