Dependance

Sometimes I wonder why the Lord has placed me with the team at my workplace. We are so different in so many ways, I wonder how I can make a difference for Christ in their life. Patterns are so etched in stone, independence and self reliance is viewed as the ultimate strength. The other day, one of my collegues made the hard and fast statement, "The only one that I can depend on is me!" and she firmly pointed to her chest.
I am not used to hearing statements like that in my Christian circles. Reliance on and submission to Christ is our goal in life. To follow His will for our life. I cannot depend on "me". I fail and I fall. My emotions sometimes get the best of me. Sometimes I get angry at my family when life gets overwhelming. I can't depend on me. When I fall it is because I have taken my eyes off of Jesus. I identify with Peter taking his eyes of Christ in the storm and starting to drown. Oh how often I feel like that impulsive and emotional disciple. Those days that life seems to just fall in on me. I want to crawl into bed and drown in my own self pity. I'm so thankful for friends that point me back into the direction of His steps. That is the kind of advice I need on those days. Not to count on "myself" but to always count on the One who never changes, the One who stands in my corner for eternity, the One who gave His life just so I live for Him here and with Him in eternity.
I guess I will continue just to be "real" at work and at home. I need to be tuned into the Holy Spirit "station" when I am with my collegues and speak up for Christ when led to do so. I want to be an example but I want to be sensitive to their lives. It is a challenging position to be in but I guess that is one of my "assignments" in life.