It's Not Fair!!!

I have days (more than I care to admit) that I am feeling particulary emotionally immature and feel things in my life aren't fair.
It's not fair that I have had an unsaved husband for the full 11 years of my life in Christ, when other unsaved spouses have come to know the Lord much sooner than 11 years of praying!
It's not fair that our social life is practically non existent because of that unequal yoke!
It's not fair that my child is no longer walking with the Lord when there are other young people not raised with a Christian parent that are on fire for Christ!
Periodically I invite myself to my own little pity party and cry in my milk (since I don't drink beer anymore!!) The only thing about my pity party is that I am the only one there!! It's a lonely world to get so self absorbed and feel sorry for myself. At the time I feel entirely justified in feeling that way. I get this self righteous feeling that I am the only one dealing with these challenges. Of course that is so far from the truth. Many godly Christians I know deal with a family member who is not walking with the Lord. There are other women out there that have unsaved husbands who are just as lonely as I am. God knows our pain, but He doesn't want us to wallow in it.
He is my sufficiency. He keeps that unsaved loved one close to his breast like the lost sheep that has been found. When I get into my pity party moods, I feel like Peter walking on the water towards Christ. When I take my eyes of the Lord and on to my circumstances, I sink badly! I need to hand over and give over permanently my burdens to Him. He sees the big picture. He is fair and just. He will not give me anything that I can't handle. When I cast my eyes onto Him those truths in Scripture all make sense to me both in my head and in my heart. In those days where the depths of despair and lonlieness seem more than I can handle, He cries those tears I cry along with me.
We have a Savior that has experienced the human emotions we deal with so He can identify with us and be that reassurance to our soul.
Amen